It makes me sick...

bleah de bleah de bleah de bleah. I threw up the other day….first time in a while…I don’t normally throw up. Even when I’m sick, I usually only feel like I’m going to throw up, but rarely ever do. But I did the other day…not even sure why. I must have eaten something bad, but I couldn’t for the life of me figure out what. I felt much better after puking though…that’s how it usually is…but then I felt sick later and had to throw up AGAIN. Then I felt better, although shaky. That’s how it goes, when you take something bad in you have to get rid of it. And usually all the good stuff that came with the bad has to go too. One would hope that our spirit’s poison prevention mechanisms are more sophisticated and able to discern and separate, so that we may keep whatever good things we have learned and grown from, while still getting rid of the bad….but I’m not so sure.

Anarchy

I've started working as a waitress recently...(3 months now) because I could not find a job as a Massage Therapist here in Buffalo. Yesterday was a slow day at the Olive Garden and I didn't make too much money, but one couple gave me a 10 dollar tip on a $30 check. I was greatful and thought about this one the way home. Most likely, she was also a server, or at least worked for tips, and she was probably in a bunch of debt like I was, yet she shared what she could with me out of appreciation and understanding.
Really, the world of economics is just a bunch of people trading money back and forth for different reaons. We all want the same things, more or less...

Happy New Year

In a land of four seasons, the first day of Winter promises its own end.. The morning of Winter Solstice we have come to call the first day of winter, since it begins the very cold period of the year in the Northern Hemisphere...but in old days, it was called Mid Winter because the year was only divided in two, and it marked the halfway point...the time when the days stopped getting shorter, the sun reborn, promising the return of spring. That's the irony of a solstice...the days get longer, but they stay cold and get colder still before the warm weather returns. "It has to get worse before it gets better."
I live in Buffalo with my Love, but I will have to leave soon to follow my dreams. I can't be certain what this will mean for the future of our relationship, but I have faith in this Love, so I will try not to fear.